And this my list of weak points I shall never draw up, for fear of it finishing me, I shall perhaps, one day, when the time comes for the inventory of my goods and chattels. For that day if it ever dawns, I shall be less afraid, of being finished than I am today. For today, if I do not feel precisley at the beginning of my careeer, I have not the presumption either to think I am near the end. So I husband my strength, for the spurt. For to be unable to spurt when the hour strikes, no, you might as well give up.